On Why I Fight With You

Your voice is clear,

You wish I would change.

You wish I would hear,

And not find it strange.

I hear my voice,

Climbing in defence,

I wish I wouldn't lie

And drop my pretense.

I wish you would say

What you felt underneath,

While I wish I would hear

What you had hid beneath.

Tell me like it is,

Every colour, every note,

Tell me if you worry,

And tell me if you dote.

But inside I must know,

I hear what you say,

Even words that you never

Planned to put my way.

I hate who I am when

I hide behind these walls

To prove I am right,

Does it matter at all?

These tears in my eyes

You did not make me cry

I am my own misery

I keep asking why.

No promised salvation

A long distance away

I must know I am here

It must happen today.

Should I ever lose you

I'd lose you to this guilt

And see it all crumble

Everything we built.